Wednesday, May 25, 2016

" But she was a Fierce "

She was a fierce.
She was a fierce
She was a fierce

Basically i've never expect someone that I close with will say like that because the fact that i won't show my fierce to everyone. However that is what we called bestfriend, where she get to know me a lot without asking to me. Of course i was shocked because she has never complain about my personality and she realised that i being myself after all. 

I told her once that i do not have an ambition then she said "You are going to be nurse". How she could describe myself when i even cannot know what I want. That is bestfriends mean. 

Sunday, May 8, 2016

Voice Out

Assalamualaikum, I just came out with this entry.

This evening mama called me asking where I am. So I thought she just wants to know why I didn’t come home this weekend. She ended up say “Okay, petang nanti mama datang”. I was shocked because mum are not someone like that and will never be like that, I guess ??? But just now she send me a 3 pieces of Kentucky Fried Chicken.. Maaann it is only 3 pieces but she has an effort to send it. In the mean time she brought my favourite FN’s Aiskrim Soda ((her favourite too)) and all of it came all way from kajang where it took half an hour to come, took RM4.40 for tol (come & go), with around 1 bar of petrol but she made it. To be exactly, mama & papa did it. It was my second time, I saw they had an effort to come & see me.

Since it is mother’s day, I would tell you one story. When I was a child, I am not an intelligent children but I was a student of first class of two classes. I was in Bijak. I love to come to mama when I finished my kindergarten but she didn’t want to layan me at all. But it is fate that I was attacked by fever where it made me lie up on bed for a few days and after I went to school I had to transferred to second class. I cried on my first day because I felt uncomfortable. This is most story I remembered about my chillhood, idk why but I knew this is something precious.

Since I was a kid, eventho I attended the same school with mum ((mum works there)) eventho every recess time I will run & find mum at her office eventho all the teachers knew that she is my mum. She never had to take my report card. She wants my father to do that. Where I always ended up waiting because papa are busy and I was annoyed. I used to take my parent’s picture and rip them into pieces and left it inside my table buuutt that was me twelve years ago. It was a very very my not matured dude believe me.

Tuesday, April 26, 2016



It’s been awhile since I post a new entry, this time I was inspired by what happened around me. It was tough. It was a busy week where we has to pass up every assignment where we has to do presentation each subjects where we need to complete the assessment and final are just around the corner.

My classmate, Amirul Asyraf sadly lost his father today. His father accident because trying to not hit a dog. It was terribled. His father entered ICU room and Arwah wokeup but then need to re-enter the ICU room again. His father went through  a hard ways to stay alive where finally his father couldn’t fight more.

My exactly post isn’t about my classmate only but generally I would to tell everyone how they should appreciate their father. I am myself not a good daughter once but I grew up in appreciating my parent & my sibling. I may had a big fight before but not in the future. Sadly hears the story brought me down where I supposedly go home this evening so I can go to appointment tomorrow with my father but I has to go with college’s driver because I got a class tonight and a fews thing distract me from not go home.

I am myself will be really down knowing I lose my dad the one & only. But I knew he’s someone who is tougher than other. The one that always obey and have a faith in Allah. I believe every action that Allah took for him are for him. It is the best for him.

My last sentences for you, Amirul Asyraf. We were close before so I knew how good boy you are. I knew you are strong like you always do. I hope you found the peace in letting your dad go. And I hope your dad will rest in peace forever & will enter the jannah. Big condolences for you, my friend…

Alfatihah for Arwah….

Monday, February 22, 2016


Assalamualaikum & Hi ! Guess ive been take the longest time ever to give some entry ahaha so how you up lately, good? I was not in good condition since i am a senpai now hahaha & its mean i have another on another responsibility and ofcourse another on another tasks to do plus my life ada up & down more than before where i have to tolerate with more people & truly i being generous to other... Burrrr im not that such of kind people weh. Ive my own anger but lately keep it inside maaannn that was hardest.. But.. But ive learnt lotsss of things & im growing much better.. Oh ya, i joined JCE, its Japanese Culture Event where held in my college & i was one of the member Choral Speaking. It was fun weh totally fun but i went through hard time to memorise those nihongo-romaji. Well its all from me, see you later ya !

Thursday, May 1, 2014

sister from another mother

I always got too much idea to blogging then after i open my blog pop! it has gone! But today, because it is a special day so i decided to blogging as soon as possible.

She known as Aqilah Pajaruddin and she is my bestfriend. It started when i got no one to love then i starts to find something different and yea i met her. She was a fantastic friend with brilliant brain, spent her life just for calculating and she went through hard time to do Bahasa Malaysia's paper. While me, i put too much efforts on mathmode but easily (not so easily, i need to struggle too) scored for my Bahasa Malaysia.Oh yea! She wants to be a teacher if i'm not mistaken, mathematics teacher. She really helps me a lot in Accounting, well basically maths brain to say. She has what i don't and i have what she don't. That is how to describe both of us. What is my personality, she has opposite of it and we always you know "saling melengkapi". She always said that I look like "him" and she act like "him". If you know what i mean aha. January till forever InshaAllah, we will be a sweet couple. We did what other couple do, hug/dance/shopping/chat and it is because she is a overly-attached girlfriend of mine. We went through a few things together such as trip to zoo, share a room, love story session and etc. Recently, we had a good times together since we really has a different personality and the fact that we loved each other more than what we are expecting aha and i will never forget her words "But she was a fierce, teacher"